Meeting Myself Again in Mexico

I find myself stepping into a new year 2026 and the theme for me this year is: Bringing in
the new by committing fully to self! This theme evolved from a life changing visit to Mexico.
But what does a relationship with self even mean? Committing fully to self? How do I
commit fully to myself? What does that even look like?

Well, interestingly enough I thought I knew. 2025, after all, was a big year for me. I one
hundred percent stepped up and committed to self. I tapped into my courage and officially
launched myself and my work as an offering into the world with the intent to share my
knowledge and experience. The goal: helping women boldly step into midlife, becoming the
true cultivators they are destined to be. Embodied in their own power, speaking their truth
and living their best lives, harvesting their knowledge and experience to shine back into the
world.

I continued to commit to my personal journey of growth, travelling, exploring new
opportunities, stretching myself out of my comfort zone, re-wiring my brain to see things
anew and operate differently. Striving to build my relationship with self by completing what
I had committed to do for myself - which brings me to Mexico!

Mexico turned everything on its head, the ideas I had about how strong I was within myself
and what I meant to me.

The ‘Growth Gods’ aligned and I found myself jumping on a plane with a friend, whom I had
never travelled with before, willing and open to explore Mexico. The main purpose of why
we were going, a friend’s 50th birthday party, and a very special birthday celebration. The
weekend was going to be filled with traditional and modern healing women, ceremonies-
opportunities for holding space, releasing old patterns, allowing new energies to enter,
grow and expand my way of being and for all who attended.

I didn’t take this lightly, I felt, this beautiful opportunity had opened up for me and I better
not waste it. Even before we left the shores of Australia and had begun to craft my
intentions for this trip of a life-time.

What I thought my intention was: I choose and intend to release any blocks, old patterns
that were stopping me from fully opening up my heart. Why, I have spent much of my adult
life alone and felt an opening to explore the idea of connecting with someone again, a more
personal and intimate relationship. Simple let go of the stuff getting in my way of having a
relationship with another human being.

So, I finished work, packed my bag and jumped into bed all ready to fly out the next day.
What happens next – a sore throat – oh no, my defences are down, I’ve stopped stressing,
my body is saying, thank goodness I don’t need to hold it together for her anymore, she can
take over and I can have a break, well that’s what I thought was happening. On the contrary,
when we heal, we heal on four levels of existence – Mentally, Emotionally, Physically and Energetically- and when I set in place my intention for healing, it activated the healing
process, it just so happened to be the Physical level that led to this healing process. I
charged on and was great at pretending I wasn’t getting sick, refusing to stop and listen to
what my body was telling me and so the messages just kept getting stronger and louder.

First, I proceeded to lose my voice, I couldn’t speak, second, I got an ear-ache and I couldn’t
hear, thirdly, I got conjunctivitis, I couldn’t see. But, hey, I am still telling myself, I’m ok, I can
manage this, I have got this, I will work it out and all will be OK!!! That is how strong my
commitment and relationship with self is – I can do it all. Not true, and it doesn’t have to be
either.

Here is where my dear friend stepped in through my barrier and more importantly I, for the
first time in a long time, allowed another human in and she cared for me. It was so beautiful
to have another human caring for me and I let go.

Yes, that’s right, do you remember my intention I set at the beginning, to release all barriers
to opening up my heart – and this is the shape my healing journey was beginning to take,
even before the healing ceremonies began.

Finally, I stopped, shut my eyes, went into silence and simply asked my body what it was
trying to show me? There it was, out of the quietness and connection with my body I
received this message: Your biggest barrier preventing you from opening up your heart is
you! How can you truly commit to self when you can’t even hold a relationship with self.
You don’t hear, speak or see your own truth. No wonder, when you don’t even love
yourself!

Wow! I saw it so clearly, the pain and hurt I was causing myself for not loving myself,
completely, fully accepting myself as I am, all of me- the good, the bad, the ugly and the
beautiful – all of it just as it is. Finally, mentally I was able to make the shift and accept
myself as is, a 58-year-old woman, a beautiful physical being, reflecting my journey in life.
This realisation, epiphany, AH-HAH moment, whatever you want to call it, prepared me for
the healing to follow on the emotional and energetic levels. The time for attending the
healing ceremonies had arrived. The gift of healing during these ceremonies was a letting go
of the fear that I am not good enough along with a huge release of shame I had carried with
me connected to what I had labelled poor choices in my life, all of which no longer served
me. I literally washed it away in the waters of Valle de Brava Lake and re-birthed in the
Temescal ceremony a new relationship with self, founded in love and complete full
acceptance of who I am here and now. I birthed a new softness and compassion for myself.

That is how Mexico changed my relationship with self and how I now step into 2026,
bringing in the new, by truly and fully committing to myself in a way I never have before. A
whole, new, expansive me.

Kim xxx